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Thanks to Nabilla and Shereen for listening to my problems. ;D
I love you both to death! Thanks many many! ((:
Well, I'm not in a very good mood now. Seriously.
Yeah, I know. He have stopped loving me. & okay, what can I do right?
All, I can do is, wish him all the best & hope, he will find someone WAY more better than me.
Love need sacrifices. I'm ready to let him go. I dont know why I feel this way.

I cried myself to sleep last night. I cant stop thinking about this.
Should I avoid him? Or, should I continue to love him?
I'm so confused. Whats the use of loving him, when I end up losing and also hurting myself?
Futhermore, he said, its a waste of his time to love me.
I'm so speechless. And, I cant say anything.
Yeaah, I know. I was at fault. But then, I dont know.
I'm so confused. I'm so lost.
I'm no longer his NATASHA ISABELLA.
No longer, the girl who is always there with him.

Tasyaaaaaa! Tasyaaaaaa! Wake up. He doesnt loves you anymore!
Pleaseee laaa Tasyaaaaa! Wake up, for God's sake! ARGHHHHHH!
I'm so sad. Seriously. Heart pain. What should I do?
I love him so much. I was so stupid to let him go.
I cant bear to lose him, seriously. Haiz, you dumb ass, Tasyaaaa!
Haaaaiz, you will never understand. I just hope we'll be together again, AS BEFORE.
In just two months, I've fallen for him. Haaaiz.
Okay, stop lah. Stop talking about this. Makes me more sad and feel like crying.

Lets talk about school today. (:
School is okay laaa. As per normal, I'm a sleeeeeping beauty. ;D
Didnt learn anything at all. Whatever goes in my left ear, will come out from my right ear.
Hahaaa, cooool right? Hahaaaa. ;D
History was boringgggggg.
All lessons was boringgggg like kuku today.
So sleeeeepy. Didnt slept well last night.
Eyes all swollen. Heh.

I sleeeeeeep all the way in class.
Seriously, I was so damn fucking sleeeeeepy!
My eyes, cant take it anymore!
Must closeclose the eyes. Hah. ;D
Today, no scoldings! Yayyyyyy! Hah, happy tau, no scoldings. Kan, macam record. Hahaaa. ;P
Talked to Shereen, about him. Asking her, what I should do.
She got her own problems right now, and yet, she's willing to help me.
Thanks ehhhh girl. I love you so much. ;D

Tomorrow is Saturdaaaaaaay!
And, I cant wait. Hahaaaaa.
Not sure, I'm going esplanade or not. Hopefully, I will laaa.
I nak tengok bunga api laaa sey! (:
Kan macam shioooook gitukkk. Hahaaaaa. ;D
If not esplanade, I'll proceed Sentosa.
We'll see how laaa. If I'm going esplanade,
I just wanna watch the fireworks with Qamal.
But, I cant. Because .. Ahhh. Nevermind.
I'll get someone else to tengok the bunga api with me. :(

Cant wait wait to meeeeeet Rizal!
Its beeeen ages since I last met him!
And, that was like, Christmas last year.
Shittttttt, I miss him. ;D
Hopefully, we'll meet okay, Rizal?
Haaaaa, okay laaaa.
Tomorrow, I wanna enjoy like fuck.
I dont care, whats going to happen.
But, what I know is, I'm going to enjoy and be happy.
I need to chill, you know.
I'm stress thinking about this problem of mine. :(
Haaaiz, pity Tasyaaaaaaaa. (:

I dont know what to write. Maybe, tonight. I'll update more wokaaays?
Take care all. Tasyaaaaaaa loves you like fuck.
Esp, that guy, even though, he left me. :(
Haaaaiz. Keep on tagging alrights? ;D



p/s; I really wished, you knew how much I loved you. I cant bear to let you go.
But, whatever happens, there's a reason. I love you, & you know who you are.
* that guy who fought with me, last night. *