i'm always the reason for you pain. :(
Tuesday, August 21, 2007
hellohello(:
i've jz reached home. im tiredddddd.
i cant sleep last night.
i was thinking.
& i slept late.
i dreamt of HIM. i crieddddddd! fuckk fuckkk fuckkkk.
school was okay today.
thanks to kendrick, never fail to make me laugh.
but, okaaay lah.
he make me laughed, jz because of that fucking RAT!
he keeps on throwing that ugly black RAT to me!
fucking hell.
hahaaa, we both got scolded from Mr Tham.
sorry Mr Tham, i'll be a goooood girl.
hahaaa.
aces day. the class was supposed to wear a shirt.
that, the school ordered.
& we can choose the numbers.
i want number 24 laaaa!
but, stupidddd. that idiot soon poh, dont wanna exchange.
idiot. hahaaaa. because, 24 is someone's birthday. (:
but, too bad. in the end, i'll get the num 31. ;D
hahaaa. jaohhhhh ehhh.
its been 3 days. i've not heard his voice. i miss him badly.
i talked to mommy about him.
telling her, how much i missed him.
asking her for advices.
mommy is someone who i can count on.
she's like my bestbestbest friend. (:
i kept on thinking. what i should do.
i feel so lost and useless.
its not that i dont want him anymore.
but, its jz not fair.
seriously. he keeps thinking, the negative side about me.
he doesnt even knows the WHOLE STORY.
he misunderstood the whole thing. :(
he even thinks, i always call other GUYS.
& i never did that! haaaiz.
but, no worries. im happy now.
because, he've found his SOMEONE SPECIAL. (:
im happy for him.
all the best to him. ;D
its not the right time yet, for me to call or talk to him.
i know, he's still mad and angry at me.
he hates me now. its okay.
i've stop calling him now. & i hope, he's happy with that.
someone has replaced my place in his heart.
hopefully, that lucky girl will take good care of his heart. (:
i cant bear to leave him.
but, since he've found someone else,
it would be better, if i jz back off, & stop disturbing his life, right?
yes yes. i know.
people might think, im trying to DESTROY their relationship.
so yeah. i wont DESTROY. (:
i know he will be happy. ;DDD
all these while, i'm always the reason for his pain.
he blames me for everything.
eventhough, he misunderstood certain things.
nevermind. i'll accept it. ;D
& those cuts on my hand,
i wrote his name. (:
painnnn laa ehh.
okay laaa. till here. keep on tagging okaaay! (:
takecare loveeeees! ;D
p/s; be happy always, love. you've found your love. takecare. & remember, tasya will always love you. i'm happy for you. all the best, hun. ;D & I MISS YOU! Labels: running away is the only solution. he's happy now, without me.
