the past can never return.
Friday, August 24, 2007

Happy Birthday, Qamarul Jaini.
May all your wishes come true.
Be happy always. & All the best in life.
Be a good boyfy, alrights?
Be happy with HER. (:
the past can never return. thats what mommy told me. she means everything to me. now, i've lose him. i've decided to move on. no use of crying for him. its not worth it. thanks to my beloved zaim & mommy, im okaay now. thanks, love. zaim is always there for him. he have chose to be with ayu. all the best, qamal. (: i knew that this was going to happen. he doesnt seems to care for me anymore. because, now. all he do was to talked to me about, AYU AYU AYU. naek bosan sey dgar. tapi, tkpe laa ehh. as long, he's happy with her. im happy. (: he doesnt have to care for me. i had enough of his pretending. sick and tired of all this shit. i thought, his birthday, was going to be a great one. but, in the end. it was the fucking worst one. i dont understand, why is it so sudden. even if he doesnt love, must he leave me? fuckkk. im so pissed & fuck up. seriously.
i've loved him with all my heart. i've sacrificed alot for him. i changed for him. i left my guy because of him. i loved him so much. & in the end, this happen. its not worth it. why is it that i was so stubborn for not listening to my friends? i regret now. mommy was so RIGHT about qamal. damn RIGHT! she knows whats going to happen. but, she kept quiet. because, she knows that i love him so much. & now, i've lose rohit & aizat. because of qamal. rohit was really a great friend. & aizat, was such a good boyfy. everyone likes him. we didnt have any problems, since i met qamal. but, im not blaming qamal. i blame myself for falling in love with another guy. how i wish, i could turn back time. & be with aizat again. i missed him so much. but, he's with another girl now. & im happy. this never happened to me before. & this is a lesson for me. for not listening to my friends. im sorry, friends. :(
okaaays, i just reached home. from bugis and city hall. i had fun, i must say. seriously. had soooo much fun with my baby zaim. he's so sweet lah okaay. haxhas. cute laa siaal. jato cinte laaa sey. hahaaa. i had fun fun fun. yay yay! he loves me. & yeaah. he scolded me earlier sey. sedey dok. because of those cuts on my hands. ahhhh, its okaay. sorry lah, baby. tasya tak buat lgik okay. haxhas. tomorrow, saturday. yay! aper lgik. kuar laaa siaal. meeting miky tomorrow. yay yay. jmp miky. wakaka. bey, siaaal. haxhas. happy dokkkk. tomorrow, i wanna meet zaim, PLEASEEEEEEE. ako da sayaang dier nikk. haxhas. mommy agreed to our relationship! YAY! mommy loves me being with zaim. yay yay. happy betool dongggg. tapi, tasya blom accept zaim laa sey. wakaka. guess what he msg me earlier? " will you accept me as your guy, cinderella ku? i tkan pakse you. but, i really love and like you, tasya. i will respect whatever your decision is. " heh, malu donggggg. serious dok. dier msg gitukkk. ako tros, PAISEY siaal. tapi, tasya blom accept lgik. i need time. (: must forget about qamal COMPLETELY, baru can accept him. but, i dont know how long its going to takes. i jz hope that i can forget him soon. this pain, is killing me. :( haaiz.
okay, till here. my zaim wanna go sleep. so, must talk to my zaim. takecare all. keep on tagging! byebye. & ako cinta zaim lah sial. ako sayang zaim. ako rindu zaim. (:
Labels: my baby. i love you., zaim