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Friday, August 3, 2007

Sorry, because I didnt update last night. Abit lazy laaa sey.
Like you dont know, like that. Heh.
So, its Saturday today. & as usual, I'll go out!
I'm bored laaa at home.
Meeting him at 5pm later. (:
I missssssssss him, lots.
Its been a very looooooong time since we last met.
I was shocked that this time, he asked me out. ;D
Happppppy tau.

Then, around 7, will proceed to esplanade.
Baybeats and the preview. I wanna go see the fireworks. (:
Maybe, meeting Rizal later. As, I'm supposed to accompany him to see the fireworks together. (:
I didnt met him for almost 7 months. :( So looooooong right?
He's sweeeet laa. Still remember me, after all these while.
Hopefully, tonight. I'll bumped into my LOVED ones. (:
Esp, Zacky. I miss him like kuku. Heh.

I received a comment from Fad.
& she's sweeeeet lah.
I'll be meeting her tonight.
Then, maybe go jalanjalan with her.
Heh. (: & pleaseeeeeeeeeeeee. I need someone to accompany me to the movies, TONIGHT!
Can someone please please please accompany me?
I'm so lonely, since we're seperated. Haaaiz.
I must be strong. (:

So yeaah. I'm still hurt. I'm very upset.
& I mean, VERY VERY VERY upset.
I dont know, how long I'm able to stand this fucking pain.
Because, this pain, is driving me crazy.
My arms hurts alot. And, only Nabilla & Nabilah, knows what happened.
I'm shocked laaa. When, he told me, he dont like it when I take it.
Terkejut berooook nye laa sey. Haaiz.
But, even if I stop taking it, will he still love me like before?
Will he still say, ' I LOVE YOU ' to me?
I just wanna turn back time. Now, I regret. Haaaiz.

I really dont know what else to do.
Got scoldings from Mommy & Daddy last night.
Because, of my foolish-ness. Haaaaiz.
I feel horrible about what happened between us.
I know, I was wrong. I shouldn't have said the things I did.
But, I cant turn back the clock, can I?
All, I can do is ask you to forgive me,
& I'll understand if you not ready for this.
Just know that, I'll wait as long as it takes to hear you tell me,
That, we're okay again. Its worth just that much to me again.
I'm really really sorry.

I hope, I'll bump into him tonight.
And, hopefully, he will talk to me. Like before.
I dont want this to end. I feel so guilty. Haaiz.
If only, I could turn back time.
But, nevermind. I'll just wait and see.
What will happen next.
Tasyaaaaaa can wait. (:

Okay people. Till here, I guess.
Keep on tagging wokaaays! (:
& I'll update more tomorrow about what happened tonight.
Hope, its not going to be a hurtful night. Takecare. ;D