Sunday, September 2, 2007
hellohello(: i`m bored to death now. & decided to update my blog. so yeaaah. as usual, i went out last night. with baby & his friends. had fun lar. but, i was in a sucky mood. bad sucky mood. for no reasons. i didn`t talk to anyone. not even my baby. i feel so damn pissed last night. & i don`t know why. haxhas. weird lar kan. okay lar. so yeaah. was at town the whole day. with baby. & i didn`t proceed to esplanade this time. shocking lar ehh. first time sey, tk p esplanade on saturday. haxhas. was with baby lar. so yes, baby sent me home. right at my door step. haxhas. cuteeeee lar. i don`t know why, he don`t allow me to go home by myself. haxhas. afraid someone might rape me, kot. haxhas. no lar. tasya kan fighter. sape nak rape. LOL. fighter lar ehh. fighter ke hape. haxhas! hokaays. so yeaah. last night, i was so SICKKKK! i don`t know why. i keep on vomitting. sad lar tauuu. no niceeeee:(
& when i reached home. adam called mommy phone. & asked me out. shitt! & that was around midnight, i guess. but, in the end. i didn`t meet him. because, baby dont like the idea of me going out in the middle of the night. :( so yeaah. i rest at home. as i was sick. :( baby keep on forcing me to eat my fucking medicine. eeeee. not nice lar hokaaays. taste like kuku. :( so yeaah. had an early night, last night. slept like a princess beauty. haxhas. mcam bahbi jek ako tdo. heh. woke up, msged my baby. & baby slept like a bear. haxhas. tdo mampos nye. no laaar. baby tdo tak mampos. because, when he sleeps beside me, he sleeps like a BABY. serious. cute seyyy. mcam udang. haxhas. ;D
so, todaaay. was such a sucky day. no idea why. no one is online. & i`m missing my grandpa. its his birthday today. HAPPY BIRTHDAY, MY BELOVED GRANDPA. (: MAY ALL YOUR WISHES COME TRUE. & i really miss him. its been almost two years, since i last met him. its quite a long time, right? haaiz. so yeaah. only baby knows what i`m going through right now. esp, without grandpa with me. to celebrate his birthday. :( grandpa, come back okaay. tasya will be waiting for your return. ;D if one day, i happen to bump into grandpa, for SURE, i`ll hug and kiss him! YES! i really will do that. haaiz. baby knows what happened, right baby? thanks for being there hokay, baby. i love you. (:
okay, i dont know why i feel this way. but so sudden. I MISS HIM. & YES. HIM. i could still remember, the first time we met. held hands, kissed and all. haiz. i miss him so much. i really do. even though, i keep on telling myself that i hate him so much, deep inside, i still love him. i cant erase him off. i dont know why. he seems to be, someone so SPECIAL to me. i wont say it out. who is he. but, i know, when i say this. he will know that i`m missing him. & that is SSS. you know, what it stands for right? we used to make fun of these letters. i miss you, i really do. :( even though, i`m attached now. i still cant take the blow. the pain that you've given me. i miss you so much. if only, you still treat me the same as before. :( haaiz. i keep on telling his friends & all. that i hate him so much. but, i really really really MISS HIM! i really do. :( everyday, i'll think of him. there`s no more hope. we`re not meant to be together. but, that`s okay. i'll jz hope, one day, we'll bump into each other. & he'll give me a hug. ;D that is all i WANT from SSS. (: & good luck & be happy always, SSS. ;D
hokaays lar. till here. i`m bored. takecare & keep on tagging. byebye.
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