Sunday, September 2, 2007
i woke up early this morning(: because, i had bad dreams. 3 different dreams. weird lar ehh. okay, i`m going to tell you. the first dream. it was about me. i was with 2 babies. & i walked to the graveyard in the middle of the night. scary kan? i kan with a trolley. i sit in the trolley & someone pushed the trolley. woooooo. scary. haxhas. so yeaah. i don`t wanna continue. because, i`m afraid, tonight i cant go to bed. haxhas. suddenly, i woke up at 5.11am. haxhas. then, went back to bed. to sleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeep! (: & the second dream. i was like in a fighting game. & to fight with GHOSTS! haxhas. my mimpi sume dar giler sikit. haxhas. seram dooool. i must kill all the ghost. or else, i`ll be dead. haxhas. eee. seram sioool!
& the third one. was about SSS. when i dream of SSS, i`ll cry. seriously. i dont know why. i really cant forget him. he`s always on my mind. i keep on telling myself, to be strong and accept the fact that he doesnt want or love me anymore. but, i jz cant. the pain, is too deep. i cant take this pain any longer. i`ve been thinking of him all these while. being attached, doesnt makes any differences. yes, its true i love my baby, but, still. loving my baby cant help me by making me stop loving SSS. i dont know why. i love SSS too much. its been a long time since i last met, chat, talked on the phone with SSS. i wonder, how is he right now. haaiz. is he happy? is he okay? haaiz. i really wish to meet him again. & be like before. maybe, close friends. (: haaiz. & yes. when i log in into my blogger, i saw someone tagged on my blog. & that is SSS! i`m so happppppy! i didnt know that he's been reading my blog all these while. haxhas. i even cried lar. when he tagged! haxhas. ahhhhhh. i miss him. (:
today, its the starting of the school holidays, i have no plans. baby is busy schooling. & me, busy sleeping. no lah. i`m bored. thought of coming to down to his hometown to meet SSS. but, i dont know. i`m afraid, i'll be left out:( ahhh. nevermind. i know, this wont happen. so yeaah. today, i have no plans. anyone wanna go out? go shopping or slack or something? anyoneeeeee? haaiz, till here. takecare. & keep on tagging. byebye.
