i'm sorry, baby.
Friday, September 28, 2007
i'm not in a good mood now. seriously.
can someone, please cheer me up! !!
haaiz. serious siol. i'm trying to be strong.
& stop myself from crying. i must be strong.
i cant always cry for him. i must stop crying.
haaiz. serious lah okay. i'm not in a good mood.
in the evening earlier, i went out with qamal.
yay. qamal with wan. i miss THEM loaaads!
& i'm happy that i finally met them.
haha. jalan2 at geylang. then, wan nak beli baju kurong.
huahua. cute lah sey. dorang due. haha.
i miss them loads lah okay. ;D
jalan here and there. then, proceed to jurong.
for a while only. qamal keep on begging me sial.
haaha. surie ehy qamal.
i really cannot stay any longer sey.
took the cab. when i looked at qamal,
i almost cry lah sey. i mean, its been a long time,
that we last met. & he begged me like hell.
& i still dont wanna stay longer. i'm a bad girl.
haiz, but, i really cant stay any longer.
i'm sorry, qamal. :(
so, when i reached home. mommy nag at me.
as per normal. i promised her 10pm, i'll be back.
but, i reached home at midnight. haaiz.
msged baby. & he's mad.
because, his friend told him that, he saw me with two guys.
i knew it! i knew that, that is going to happen.
now, i'm fighting with baby. but, i've give up.
on EVERYTHING. seriously. he loves me so much.
but, i keep on hurting me.
he even said that! !! he said, i hurt him, without knowing.
& i also, dont know how to look after his heart.
maybe, this heart of mine, dont want anyone to be in there.
i've given up on everything.
i'm so confused. i dont even know.
if this relationship can last long.
since the day, SSS left me.
everything changed. i loved SSS badly.
now, he left me. i dont wanna be in love.
i mean, i dont have the confidence.
i loved baby so much, but, sometimes.
i give up, on EVERYTHING. haaiz.
now, i'm fighting with rohit. sial ah tuh jantan.
kau maner pey bsar lah sakk?
kau pkir kau hebat. ako bley buktikan kau,
yang ako lgik hebat ahh! buto sama lu lah sial.
prangai maseh adeq2. baru nak naek nye kes!
tk pham siol ako nan prangai rohit.
serious sakk. cara dier bobal nan ako.
ako bersbar sakk. ako nah stress nie.
IN THE END. I CRIEDDD!I CANT TAKE THIS FUCKING PAIN.I NEED SOMEONE! !! PLEASEEEE! !!HOW LONG MUST I BEAR THIS PAIN!?!THIS PAIN, HURTS ME! !! IT CANT BE HEAL! !!AKO NAK MATI ! !! ARGHHHHHHHHHHHH!:( :( :( :( :(Labels: the pain is too deep.
