Friday, October 12, 2007
Good afternoon all. Sorry for yesterday's post. I wasnt feeling so good and was having mood swings and some problems. Ignore the last post, alright. Now, I'm feeling much better. After taking that small yucky pathetic pill. Daddy had to force me for 7 hours, to swallow that pill. Yeah, I'm very stubborn. Heh.
Thanks to Amin. Who have always been there for me. Taking care of me when I'm sick. He would do anything as long that I eat, drink and rest. Heh. But, I'm okay now. No longer having any fever. But, my headache and sore throat getting bad to worst. =/
Each time I talked to Amin on the phone, tears will rolled down my cheeks. And, I really appreciate Amin's love and concern towards me. He understands what I'm going through now. (:
Whenever I cry, my sickness will worsen. Whenever I think about my problems, it'll worsen. I got no one else to talk to about my problem. And, I turn to Casper. To lend me a listening ear. And, he did. He adviced me. And, told me to choose who I truly love and want to be with. He said, he just wants to best for me.
And, out of a sudden, Casper initiated to end our friendship. I dont know what was his reason is. I mean, I dont know what was my fault. I was so shocked, that I shed tears after losing a friend. And, he said, " k .. dulu the 1st time we known each other, i fall inlove wiff u .. but i can't express my feeling n i dunnoe y .. coz i noe i'm not the type of guy u're looking for .. n each dae u online, really hope dat 1 dae we could be together .. i noe i'm talking shit now ! n i dunnoe y now i can express my feelings towards u .. n i hav made my decision dat we should stop our frenship til here .. "
And, that is what he said to me, exactly. Haiz. I really dont understand him. ;( I just dont wanna lose friends like him. Seriously. And, each time, I asked him, what's happening. He will just said, " I dont know " or " nothing " . Pathetic, right? Haiz. Having so much problem at one shot, really giving me fucking stress.
I talked to Mommy and I laughed my lungs out. I laughed so hard till my fucking sore throat hurts like kuku! Mommy is my bestest friend. I loved her sooo much. She has always been there for me. (: Love you, Mommy.
I cant wait to call my Papa later! Weee. Miss him alooot. Gonna meet him, soooooon! And, last night, I asked myself, " How is my Dearest Ijad doing inside there? " . I miss him soo much. A week just passed. And, I miss him alot.
Please, come back soon. ;( Fuck this fucking doc. I need the doc and the doc says, I need the hospital. Fucking shit. Now, I'm afraid.. Because of that fucking INJECTIONS. ARGHHHH!
Alrights, till here, readers. Takecare, byebyeeee!
Labels: No injections, pleaseeee.
