I miss you, friend.
Monday, October 22, 2007
I've been feeling so hopeless now, since the day I left my closest friend. It was for OUR own good, friend. Sometimes, you need to sacrifice in life. The more I'll be your friend, the more you'll love me. I don't want that to happen. Because, being friends with you, will harm my relationship.
I don't wanna lose Baby, as well as losing you. I cant bear to lose a friend like you. But, I'm forced to choose this decision. I'm sorry. Not only it will harm my relationship, but, there's also other reasons. I know, you'll find someone better than me, someday. Trust me.
You're such a good, friendly, caring and loving guy. Many girls will go chasing over you. Trust me. I know you too well. Just move on with life. Life is never fair. I'm sorry for everything. I didnt mean to reject your love, but I got no choice. I'm sorry.
As I was waiting for the train to arrived, I asked myself, why am I feeling so moody and sad after leaving him? And, my heart replied, because I cant bear to lose a friend like him. I admit, I really cant. He's the closest with me among all. Even though I would hurt him at times, he would still be patient and bear with my attitude.
Suddenly, out of a sudden. He appeared beside me. I was all alone. And, I cried when I looked at him. I don't know why I was crying. When the train came, I walked into the train and left him there all alone. He wanted to send me home, but I dont allow him to. When I was in the train, tears rolled down my cheeks as I think of him.
A lady who was beside me, was very friendly. She saw me crying. She pass me some tissues and when she was about to alight, she said to me and tapped my shoulder, " Be strong, girl. Stop crying. Life is always unfair. Takecare, girl. Start anew. " She's a very nice lady, trust me.
When she left, I've stopped crying. And, I keep on asking myself. Why am I feeling this way when eventually I'm the one who chose this decision. I miss him, but, I dare not admit it. I must get use to it no matter what. For the sake of Baby and his own good, I'm doing all these.
Let me suffer all alone. I just want to see you happy. I'll be the one who will be shouldering your burden. I know the decision was a shock one. But, still. You got to move on. I'll be there always. Hopefully, one day, we'll meet someday. Takecare, friend. I miss you. ):
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