hottie misses bontot krengge. ;( everything is over now.
Tuesday, November 27, 2007
Good morning! I went to bed at 630am earlier. And now, its 1109am. I cant sleep. Amin keeps on sms-ing me. He cant sleep. Now, I`m awake. I cant go to bed backkkkkk! Grrr.. I'm sleepyyy. I need some sleep. Or, I'll get this sucky eyebags thingy.
I guess, Amin just fallen asleep at 9plus perhaps. He's gonna give me wake up call later. We'll see, who's gonna give who a wake up call. We're going to Town baybehhhhhh! Weee! I'm bored to deathhh. No one is online. Bluekkk.
Now, I'm all fucked up & heartbroken. About my relationship between me and Ijad. We broke up last night. And, what the fuck. Why must he end up leaving me? I know, you're going in soon. But, fuck. Must you go this far? As you promised, you'll look for me when you got release. And, I hope, you keep your promise. Elly is gonna wait for you. ;(
Elly misses Ijad soo much. I miss him calling me, "
Hey Hottie. " I miss calling him, "
Bontot Krengge. " I miss every single moment whenever I'm with him. I miss talking to him on the phone. I miss challenging him. I miss laughing with him. I just miss him so much. Ijad, can you come back to me? Why must you go? I LOVE YOU FUCKING MUCH. ;( Now, everything is over. And, I got to accept the fact. ;(
I finally told the truth to Adam. I told him that all these long I was attached to Ijad. I'm sorry for not telling you the truth. But, I didnt want to hurt you. Cause, you've been waiting for me for soo long. And, out of sudden, Ijad appeared in my life, and I can straight away accept him but not you. I love Ijad, thats all.
Now, everyone is all, asking me. Am I okay, after I broke up with Ijad. Haha. Excuse me lahhh sayaaang. Since when Elly cant bear pain like this? And breakups? Haha. I'm doing fine. (; Hehe. Thanks for the concern, btw.
My relationship between me and him is not stable yet. First, its nothing. Then, its something. And, now, its nothing again. Oh myyy. I'm soo lost and confused. I just need someone to explain things to me in details and let me understand. When he left, I want him back. When he's back, I want him to go. Just, what the fuck do I fucking want from him?
I just dont get it. I dont understand me. I dont understand him, either. It'll be easier if I shouldnt have loved him so much in the first place. But, I really have to sacrifice. And, let him go. But, still. Its difficult to let him go. I dont know what I should do next. Now, this is why, I hate to have a boyfriend for now.
We always argued and quarrelled, eventhough we're just friends. And, end up leaving each other. And, after a while, things get back to normal. But, this is not the relationship I want it to be. This is HELL! I just want a happy relationships. Hardly fights and argue. You just dont understand a thing. Thats why.
Alrights, I suggest. I better stop here. I'm gonna take a short nap. If possible. Goodbye, readers!
P/S : & I hope, you keep your promise. Cause, I'm here. Waiting for you to be release. ;(
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