its elly, bitch!

Saturday, January 12, 2008

Last night, was so the kecoh, babyyyy! Was supposed to meet Ally and go drinking with her, but in the end, the plan was cancelled. Cause, she's going out with her Mommy. So, yeahh. It's boring slacking at home. So, I called Shereen and asked her to meet me. She told me to get ready and give her a call when I'm going out. Called Baby, and told him I'm meeting Shereen(:

So yeah, went out around 745pm. Reached Esplanade, and was walking alone. And, bumped into a group of guys. Budak2 esplanade lahhh oii. Haha. They nagged at me. Damn them. Fcuker. Jz because, I seldoms chill at esplanade nowadays, I got a big nagging session from them. Stupid assholes. Haha.

Met Shereen, she introduced to me to all her friends. Oh myyy.. And, she introduced to me a guy who's body is full of tattoos. Kiwakkk! Terkencet skejap siol, ako. Tapi, tkpe. I jz say hello and walked away. Shereen wanna drink. So, went to 7-11 and brought Glen's Vodka! Wooo! I was with Shereen, her guy and myself. The rest was at Esplanade Gig. So, yeahhh.

Went drinking at Marina Square. But, everything was screwed up. Shereen's guy was drunk. And, Shereen took 10 pills of that fucking pathetic power. Monkey idiot girl. And, in the end, I had to drink up the whole bottle of liquor. Damn! So, yeahhhhhhh. I was damn fucking bored. Cause, I need Baby badly. And, a drinking partner. But, none was there for me.

Out of a sudden, Shereen and her guy left me alone. Without saying goodbye. Fucking bitch. Sometimes, I hate her so much. Arghhh! She left me alone. I text Baby and told him to call me. He called me, and I asked him to meet me. But, he cant. Due to some family meetings. I was alone. I was damn fucking drunk. I couldnt take it anymore.

I even talked to myself. Damn. Then, suddenly, Amin text me. I called him, and asked him, who is that. Cause, I didnt save his number in my phone. I was crying badly. I need Baby soo badly, at that point of time. In the end, Amin was the one who came all the way to Marina just to make sure I'm okay.

But, I was expecting it to be Baby. But, no. I was wrong. Baby didnt turn up. :(
I was very hurt. But, I couldnt care less. Baby keep on calling me and asking me to go home. But, I refused. I was stubborn. Brought another bottle of Glen's. And, drink it all alone and by myself. Many things run into my head. Aizat, Adam and Amin. I don't know why I'm feeling this way.

Aizat's letter have not arrived. I'm still waiting for his response. I miss him alot. But, there's nothing I can do. I just have to be patient and wait for him. I was fucking drunk. I fell down the stairs and injured my knee and forehead. I was trying so hard to control. But, I cant. I needed Baby at that point of time - but he didnt turn up. :(

After I finished my drink, went to the taxi stand, and I saw Amin. He came down, just for my sake. And, I thanked him for that. But, why must he come, when he was the one who wants to forget about me? I know, I'm useless. So, stop looking for me. I dont need you, when I'm drunk. I can take good care of myself. But, he wasnt there when I needed him the most. :(

Took cab home with Amin. I couldnt even walk. I drop and fell in the middle of the road, lying down there like an idiot. Waiting for a car to pass by. So that, I might just die. And, everyone will be happy. I cried badly. I never cried like that before. I was sooo hurt. Baby didnt turn up for me.

But, its okay. No matter what, I still love my baby - AdamFaromy. ALOOOOOOOOOOOOT! I shall end here now. I'm boredddd! Takecare. Byebyeeee!

P/S : I just need you to be by my side, always. <3