fcuked up life.
Tuesday, February 5, 2008
Yes! I'm afraid of you. So, please stop disturbing and bugging me. Thanks to you, I'm in this situation. I will never meet you again. The presence of you, makes me wanna puke. Blame yourself for everything. It wasn't my fault at all. If this didn't happened in the first place, I think you shouldn't have suffered this much. Trust me.
You love lying to me, huh? Lie for all I care. Go ahead and lie. I gave you a chance. To prove to me that you were sincere in wanting me back. But, I was wrong. I thought, eventhough we're drifting apart and not as before, we could still be friends. But, you ruined everything. And, I mean,
EVERYTHING.
I'm so dissapointed in you. And, yet. I'm trying to be strong and bear all this pain that you've given to me. I gave you advices and all, but it fell on deaf ears. You never wanted to listen to me. Till the day I was out from your life, then you realised, you have to change. Why must you do it the hard way? You did have a choice. But, you chose the hard one.
It doesn't matter anything to me, anymore. Because, I'm used to it. Seriously, I'm used to it. I've felt this way many times whenever I'm with you. You never wanna keep your promises. So, I find this, very normal for me. You said, I didn't spare a thought for your feelings? If thats the case, I can't say anything. I just hope, you'll open your damn fucking big round eyes, and realised who was the one who didn't spare a thought for who's feelings.
Its okay. I've always forgive you. I don't know why I'm so stupid to blog about someone like you. You're just wasting my time. I hope, you'll be happy. And, all the best in life. Like I said, I can be your best friend or your worst enemy. You can choose it. Its up to you. And, my friend, racking up the past, wont bring any good. Trust me.
Finally! I'm able to let off my inner feelings. And, who knows, he might read my post, one fine day. Today, wasnt a fun day a school. I fought with Ashereen twice. And, I don't know why. But, its okay. I don't care. Don't give a damn, either. I failed my Science test. Fuck. I don't know why the sudden fail. Arghh.
Tomorrow is Chinese New Year Eve. And, I wanna wish all my chinese friends a Happy Lunar New Year! Huahua. Okay, I got nothing else to type. Till here. Goodnight!
