Wednesday, March 12, 2008
I'm updating right now because I'm damn fcuking bored and its been a long time since I've last updated. Well.. Things at home is getting more worst. I dont know why. I have not talk to my parents for about 3 days, I guess. I dont know how much longer will this drag. I really dont. If Mommy thinks he's right and always right, go ahead and side him instead of her own fucking daughter.
If Mommy dont like about the way I treat him, she should ask why I did that. There's always reasons. But, she doesnt. You neglect me because of HIM. And, how I wish there will be a time where you will stick with your 3 daughters and leave him alone. Your 3 daughters feel neglected, Mommy. You don't know what it feels like to be neglected by your own parents.
You've changed, Mommy. I know I'm not supposed to say this. But, how long should I keep it to myself? I only have you. I got no one else. I ONLY have you. But, whatever I'm trying to do, nothing pleases you. Yes, I know you love and wants the best for me. I love you too, Mommy. But, some things gotta change. I just hope you'll be my Mommy like how you used to be before. And, its 3 of your daughters who wants you to be like before. And, ILY, Mommy. I really do. If I've hurt your feelings, I'M SORRY.
I've not been enjoying my holidays. My holiday sucks. I rather be in school with all my friends than staying home all day. I got no cash to go out as I'm fucking broke. I can't ask Mommy for money as we're having conflicts right now and she doesnt even wants to talk to me. I just need someone who can fucking cheer me up and bring me out! That's what I need.
Hell yeah. Me and Adam will never stop quarrelling. Cool or what. Seriously. If things gonna go on this way, I really dont know what I should do next. Seriously. I have enough problems right now. You don't know what I'm going through, Adam. You really dont. There's alot of things that you should know. It will be kind of you, if you could just make sure we wont quarrel for a day. Can you? I know, its gonna be a NO.
Seems like, I will be meeting my friends only when school reopens. How great. I just cant wait for school to reopens! I'll be busy, by then. Studying for my MYE. Yes, I'm gonna study and pass with flying colours. I wont let Mommy down. I wont. I'll buck up in my studies and work hard. (:
Thanks Pchild. I don't know what to do if you're not around. Thanks for the advice. Thanks for encouraging me. Thanks for everything. You never failed to make me smile or laugh whenever I'm down. Thanks, Pchild. :D
I just got Ijad's letter. And, he's gonna pursue his studies. And, I'm happy with that. He's gonna sit for his N level this year. And, hopefully, he'll be in ITE next year. I miss Ijad alot. If he's here.. Everything will change. He's just like Mommy's godson. If only you were here. You'll help me and talk to Mama. I miss you, Ijad. I really do. <3
P/S : Can someone please top up my damn fucking phone? :D
